In the recent public hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee, Dr. Christine Blasey Ford seemed totally belivable when she asserted that she was 100% sure that the boy who groped her and covered her mouth when she tried to call out was Brett Kavanaugh. And then Brett Kavanaugh seemed believable when he asserted that the event never happened. Could they both have been telling the truth, according to what they remember?

One solution to this mystery has been suggested by some on the committee. Maybe Dr. Ford “mis-remembered” and her attacker was someone else. After hearing her account, that explanation does not seem plausible to me. Weighing both testimonies, as well as the accusations made in public and online, it seems much more likely that it is Kavanaugh whose memory is inaccurate.

I have come across 6 accounts of Kavanaugh’s patterns of drinking. In every case, he is described as severely impaired by alcohol—stumbling, barely able to walk, slurring his speech, or throwing up. One of these accounts is from Christine Blasey Ford, who said during her testimony that Kavanaugh could not succeed in taking her clothes off, partly because he was “very inebriated.”

Two other accounts are from women who did not testify, and whose stories were not investigated by the FBI. Deborah Ramirez reported that a drunken Kavanaugh exposed himself to her at a dorm party.

Julie Swetnick reported that Kavanaugh and his friend Mark Judge used to slip grain alcohol into women’s drinks and shut them in rooms with a line outside of boys waiting to rape them.

A fourth anonymous accusation from more recently (1998) asserts that a drunken Kavanaugh pushed the woman he was then dating up against the wall of a building “very aggressively and sexually.”

The fifth account comes from Kavanaugh’s friend Mark Judge (who has asserted that what Ford described is “no situation I ever remember being in”—a slightly different claim from saying that it never happened.) Judge is mentioned as a participant in a number of these accounts, including Ford’s, and seems to have been the ring-leader in these escapades .It is his laughter, along with Kavanaugh’s, that still haunts Christine Blasey Ford. Judge wrote a book celebrating years of drunken misbehavior, Wasted—Tales of a Gen X Drunk, which makes reference to Kavanaugh.

Perhaps the most damning account is from Kavanaugh himself. In a speech he made in 2014, recalling his years at Yale Law School. Kavanaugh spoke about “organizing 30 classmates in a bus to go to Boston for a Red Sox game and a night of Boston bar-hopping, only for us to return falling out of the bus onto the front steps of Yale Law School at about 4:45 a.m.” He also tells how he and a classmate “were reminiscing and piecing things together the other day. We think we had more than a few beers before the banquet. Might have been at Toads. Not a good idea.” These words suggest that his memory of events that happened while he was drinking is less than perfect.

Is Kavanaugh still drinking heavily? His anger-tinged response to questions about his drinking would suggest that the answer is yes. “I liked beer. I still like beer” followed by a denial that he had ever blacked out or assaulted anyone while drinking.

Kavanaugh’s demeanor during the hearings has drawn many comments. Sometimes he was visibly very angry, lashing out with wild accusations. Sometimes he was in tears. He was fixated on the cost of these accusations to himself and his family. In many ways, his response resembled a temper tantrum thrown by a toddler or a young adolescent. Those who study patterns of addiction to alcohol or other substances suggest that addicts become emotionally frozen at the age when they first began using. Clearly, Kavanaugh is mentally and logically advanced far beyond the age of 15. But his public testimony suggests that emotionally he is a petulant, entitled young teen who believes that he should be spared the consequences of his actions.